Mercury Retrograde Breakthrough
With each Mercury Retrograde, we evolve a little. For some of us, it’s all about ending connections or relationships that no longer serve us. For others who have been doing the deep inner work for some time, this season could bring major breakthroughs about ourselves and our identities.
If you’re like me and you already cut off most of your old, fake friends, then you’re probably in the phase of constantly evolving and seeing your identity change in alignment with your new self.
After a very powerful six-month Bali trip, I had a major breakthrough on the very last day of that long getaway. I also realized that I reached 70 kilos by the end of that trip!
Let me share about this breakthrough because it might help you understand why some of us take longer to manifest our dream life and person.
Why we Can’t Manifest with our Old Identity
The crazy part about manifestation is that we’re trying to align with a life and new way of being that’s not essentially part of who we are, because of our family conditioning.
In the last two days of my six-month Bali trip, I met with a Tarot card reader who also has psychic abilities. And strangely enough, I only discovered her in my last week or so although she’s based in the same part of Bali where I was staying for around four months!
During the one-hour reading, she mentioned how I’m still evolving and shaping into the person who can be in (and keep) a healthy and loving relationship. She also mentioned practicing connecting to the body and my feelings, as opposed to always being in the mind.
The truth is that a lot of us were raised in homes where feelings were unheard of and all of the connecting and being came from the mind and the thought process.
If you’ve lived all of your life this way and connecting to your feelings and emotions is something new to you, you will totally get what I’m saying. It’s one thing to live from that place and another to discover that your entire reality and the people you attract into your life are also living from that place! This idea alone is so mind-blowing!
Because this means that your entire reality was shaped by your family’s limiting beliefs and thoughts and this goes beyond healing and forgiveness. This makes you truly rethink your entire existence and social circles or connections.
I also realized that this family conditioning served a purpose but it also has huge flaws and negative consequences. How on earth can I connect with another human being in a romantic relationship when I can’t even connect to my own feelings and emotions?!
Because our reality is created by our thoughts and beliefs, this limiting way of being (being mind-identified) is constantly being reflected back to us in our daily life. Isn’t that scary and sad?
What can you Do Now?
Apart from bringing awareness to this restricting way of being and connecting to the world, you want to start doing things differently to shift into your new, evolved identity.
The tarot card reader suggested getting massages to reconnect with the body (and this is something that I’ve always been doing).
What I’m really excited about is to join some group classes at the gyms in my next Bali trip and to start focusing on regular workouts and training. I stopped joining these types of group fitness classes after some negative experience in Dubai. But I’m now ready to get back to these types of classes in a different country and environment.
For me personally, the main thing is always self-awareness. I start to see how the people I encounter or see on social media live. Are they coming from the same mind-identified place as me? Or do they engage with their feelings and body more? It’s really as simple as that – being aware of my reality and the people who are in it.
Let me know your Thoughts
I’m curious to know, did you grow up in an emotionally healthy home environment where connecting with and showing your feelings was the norm? Or did you get used to suppressing your real emotions and just focusing on what the family though mattered the most: good grades, hard work and success?
Love,
Leela
